I have been wanting to write this little thing for quite a long time and have tried several times none of them convey what I really wanted them to say. Despite this fact I'm going to try again because it's driving me crazy having this thought/idea and not sharing it, not knowing if anyone else thinks this way (I doubt they do but you never know). so here we go.
i stumbled across this idea because of something one of my friends said. we were talking about the sunroof in his car and how he plans to use it to be romantic during a date and stuff and then he said the sentence that sparked this thing that has been slowly changing the way i think. his words (as I remember them) "that's if i ever get a date" that simple statement blew my mind and at that time i had no idea why, but later i was thinking about it and realized that my whole life i have had this messed up view of the opposite sex! I have seen them as these unobtainable, confident, for a lack of a better word players (but not actually players just people who know how to play the game) and me being me i have never had game in all actuality i suck at the game I've come to except this sad fact. but this seven word sentence change everything for me! Male are just as self conscious if not more than females.
This discovery has set me on a very very difficult path, to change the way i've been thinking my entire life. do you understand how hard this process is? Yeah, it sure as hell ain't easy. I constantly have to keep reminding myself that guys aren't as confident as they make themselves out to be. this isn't a simple task either cause whenever i think that i'm starting to believe it someone does something to make me question myself. but i'm getting there and eventually it'll be a hell of alot harder to make me question myself! :)
i'm going to try to start posting once every week. no promises that they'll be great but they'll be there hopefully
thanks for reading if you have anything you want me to talk about in a blog let me know in a comment
Yours truly,
Mikaila
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